What have I gotten myself into?

So, I've debated back and forth about whether or not to start this blog. Why? Because putting it out there makes it real, really commits me to what I'm about to undertake, and most importantly pushes me to be successful at something that I've struggled with for most of my life - my weight.

It all started back in September when I stumbled across a flier for an "Ultimate Weight-loss Makeover" opportunity here in Sudden Valley. The search was on two participants - people who wanted to make changes towards a healthier lifestyle and who needed to loose 40-60+ pounds. This certainly described me. I tucked this information away for a week or so, but thought about it daily. I finally filled out the paperwork, wrote my essay and mailed it off. And, what do you know - they picked me! "Yeah!" and "Holy s*#t, what have a gotten myself into?" were the first two things that crossed my mind. Now I've done it, committed myself to something I have failed at over an over again.

Now, I'm good a lots of things, but taking care of myself and putting myself first have never been my strong points. I'm a great cheerleader for others, but for myself, not so much. I've learned that if I don't try, I can't fail - but at the same time I feel miserable about myself.

That changes today. That's why I'm writing this blog. Not so much for validation and support, but rather as a way for me to work through this endeavor as I find my way forward.

Stay tuned...